The Book of Dreams

I'm a friend killer; I stay the same
while you dream of union and forever,
crying until the next emptiness filler,
Spanish coffee beneath the rain mirror,
cherry blossom in your lying brain.

In mine: a figure in a shadow coat
on a strand that stretches out for miles
under a deep blue dusk; a bell's chimes
like droplets in the silence of his smile.
Music and seaspray, everything that floats.

I cut away my old face in a dream,
slicing carefully beneath the chin,
breathing wetly underneath the skin
of a film star. Then I looked within
in agony. I am not what I seem.

I will wear the ugliness today;
let my eyes turn black and let my mouth
split into a snarl. I'll cast you out
and stand alone and haloed. In my house
there are many mansions: here I'll stay.

On Being Alive

We are two shadows in the rain
walking around the reservoir together -
you tell me that you are afraid
I am not real; that you felt better

in your old, unfeeling shell,
your dark umbrella of self,
than being kissed and gently held
under soaking clouds, your hair wet,

wondering if it can be true
that I really do see the real you

Mama Kali From Before

My Holy Guardian Angel
Is the Jesus of the Spheres
The am beheld and cradled
Imperceptible appears

In skin She wraps the Radiant
Of Gold the ether sings
Her arrows arch the firmament
In glory of its wings

I worship at Her Fountainhead
Undrinking I inhale
Her passionate and bountifed
Impressionless impaled

The murderer between us She
Possesses undefiled
Deliverance unslivers me
Unshudder with Her Smile

Repent and only sinnerless
I infinitely True
My outcry for Her Tenderness
Destroyer I Love You

4D

All this time –
I have seen such changes
in you, counted the dry
husks of your selves arranged

like a calendar.
A simple thought – that I
might keep you together.
Your fragmentary life

I would chronicle,
wrapping your sloughed skins
around my wrists and ankles,
saving them from the wind.

My scattered lover –
as you freeze from instant
to instant, I will recover
the true shapes of your existence.